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Nov. 2nd, 2009 @ 11:20 pm (no subject)
"Smite us for our iniquities."
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Nov. 1st, 2009 @ 01:31 pm (no subject)
This Halloween: only slightly less embarrassing than the last.
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Oct. 30th, 2009 @ 05:50 pm (no subject)
The Mothman loves treats.
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Oct. 28th, 2009 @ 02:14 pm (no subject)
I am destitute and tired from going out so much. For the weekdays, I think I am reverting back to recluse mode. Everything has just been a little too much lately.
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Oct. 26th, 2009 @ 07:25 pm (no subject)
Am enjoying the new Tegan and Sara song more than I should be. Help me.
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Oct. 25th, 2009 @ 02:06 pm (no subject)
This is kind of a fucked up day and I kind of hate it.
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Oct. 25th, 2009 @ 12:13 pm (no subject)
Current Music: FUUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKK YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH
I kind of want some FUUUUUUUCCCCCKKKKKK YEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHH
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Oct. 23rd, 2009 @ 01:18 am (no subject)
Current Music: Wire
Baha, good.
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Oct. 20th, 2009 @ 07:08 pm I puked last night.
For the first time after four days of non-stop partying. I mean, it's like a dream. Or a dual life. There have been some good memories: discussing the validity of Snakes on a Plane; Giving fashion advice to a girl who was much more attractive than I, and much better dressed; Partying in a bathroom with metal dudes who looked like they were straight out of Maiden; Eating a bar of soap; Eating a straight up pumpkin; Reuniting with Erik motherfucking Ejaculet Holland; Free shows; Adios Motherfuckers; Chess games in bars; Where the Wild Things Are.

Basically, I have killed it over the last four days. I outdid everyone in being the all around party master. Andrew WK is crying himself to sleep somewhere right now because my partying broke his windows and slashed his tires.

In addition, somewhere within and between this scrambled haze I had a almost two hour conversation with the ex: Chelsea. It made me miss her a lot. The rapidity in which I became secure in that relationship was uncanny.... and she was a total babe, so, like, yeah, it was really good to joke around with her again and let her know that I still think about her.

However, I have been extremely irresponsible as of late. I have done virtually no work this week and it feels strange. So now I have to finish a 300 page book tomorrow. I am too dazed to do it right now. Also, I feel like my vision is deteriorating . I have a bruise on my stomach that is undefined in origin. And I have a mustache.... what the fuck. I don't remember growing this thing. And all the hangovers become frustrating. They make me feel alone, and I would really like someone to lie in bed with and do a bunch of nothing at all. Fuck it though, I'm pretty damn cool. Damn cool enough for myself.
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Oct. 20th, 2009 @ 03:57 pm (no subject)
Current Music: Howlin' Wolf - Moanin' at Midnight
I've been partying too hard. Time to get married soon.
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Oct. 13th, 2009 @ 01:27 pm Something I jotted down while reading yesterday. I forgot about it until I found it in my pocket.
Current Music: X - The World's A Mess, It's in My Kiss
People who are navigated by their own moral compass due to adverse or extraordinary circumstances in life, who inflict great pain in their ethical indifference, as well as taint others in the process of gratifying themselves [fragment].

Now that I think of it, this may just be paraphrasing something Philip Zimbardo wrote.
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Oct. 9th, 2009 @ 12:19 am (no subject)
C'mon people, for fuck's sake! NASA is not trying to blow up the moon.
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Sep. 30th, 2009 @ 12:26 pm Really quick:
Current Music: X - Back to the Base
Yesterday was a veritable roller coaster.

1) I found I was over-drafted when I deposited my check which is never good. And it has everything to do with the stipulations of my whack account which I have neglected to have fixed.

2) On Monday I lost my test kit for my diabetes along with my night time insulin. Since I was at work most of the day I assumed it was there. Not the case -$120 there.

3) I went to PB to read for school and it was incredibly nice. There were not a lot of people, and it was overcast.

4) I Had to spend $45 on a clicker for a class that I am only taking to stay on my mother's insurance. I guess it beats the alternative.

5) Explored SDSU with Steve. In the process I learned things only Steve would know about the campus, like how to get to the top of the astronomy building.

6) After class I came home and had a message from a friend I haven't talked to in five years. She was my first high school crush and one of the nicest people I have met.
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Sep. 29th, 2009 @ 08:41 am (no subject)
Current Music: Mission of Burma - Blunder
As a result of my now very habitual nocturnal habits I stay up until at least 3:30 am every night, eat too much food, and sleep until generally noon. It feels ridiculous. All of the excess sleep has caught up with me at this point and now I can't fall back asleep. This means I am headed to Pacific Beach to read for as long as I can, and then class. I think I found the square root of life: it is called grad school. Everything becomes very simple when your agency is limited by work.
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Sep. 23rd, 2009 @ 02:43 pm Even if you don't give a shit about the Dylanesque Walkmen this video is pretty cool:
Current Music: Passion Pit - Juan's Basement
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Sep. 22nd, 2009 @ 09:52 pm (no subject)
My classes are enthralling and I thoroughly enjoy the subject matter, but I don't think I can maintain with all the reading I am assigned. I feel completely drained and lethargic right now and cannot bring myself to do anything academic related. This is not to say that I am going to start shirking my work, but a new approach is needed. Speed reading has helped, but can only go so far on days where reading 350+ pages is necessary. Skimming is going to be my new approach. Not all of the time, but just when I need a break from this conflagration of course work. On the reverse side of the spectrum, I still have been able to maintain a prosperous social life, or at least to a greater extent than I can believe. Cutting back on friend time wouldn't  even help me I'm sure.... it isn't that I am suffering from a lack of time to do things, I am just wearing myself down here. If my eyes had bones I feel they would be exposed.

Then, maybe I am just being soft on myself. I am aware there are people out there who take on much more work than I. Either way, I am getting my MA in history. I have sarted and therefore I will finish.
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Sep. 21st, 2009 @ 12:44 pm (no subject)
Does anybody out there have dreams that are so lucid and specific that they destroy your whole day before it begins?
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Sep. 21st, 2009 @ 12:47 am (no subject)
What can you say about the first boy on your top?
His birthday is the day before mine and his brother's is the day before my brother's. It makes perfect sense.

What do you bite on more, your tongue, lip, or nails?
Lip. Bottom.

Do you trust all your friends?
No.

Last time you laughed?
Talking with Steve about Sarah Palin.

Do you ever curse in front of your parents?
Not severely.

Where is your best friend right now?
Probably inside their homes.

Has anyone told you they would never leave and left?
Everybody tells me that they will eventually go away.

Would you ever smile at a stranger?
No. Not ever.

How did you and your number 1 meet?
I met him in the back of the Rancho Towne Shopping Center. He went to get an apple for me and our mutual friend Jacen to smoke out of. He did not partake.

Do you think before you speak?
Not always.

Who was the last guy you had a conversation with?
Steve.

When's your birthday?
December 24th.

Do you sleep with the TV on?
Sometimes.

Is your room ever clean?
Every week or so.

Is there a night you would like to put on repeat, and live it forever?
No.

Who else is in the room with you?
None.

How many girls do you fully trust?
None. Eve tricked Adam.

Does anyone know your password besides you?
Probably.

Do you listen to music when you're down?
And up.

Have you kissed lots of people this year?
What qualifies as lots? I don't think I have.

Would you rather do the dishes or clean the bedroom?
Bedroom.

Have your past mistakes made you wiser?
Debatable.

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn't do?
Yes. Shit.

Have you seen the last person you were on the phone with naked?
Funny enough, yes, but certainly not in a sexual way.

Will you be in a relationship next month?
Yes.

Last time you talked to your mom in person?
A few hours ago.

Are you excited about anything today?
Winding down.

Did you cry at all today?
No time for that.

Have you broken the law in the last 3 days?
Yes.

What's on your bedroom floor right now?
Clothes. Mostly clothes.

Is there one person you can always depend on to make you smile?
No. That would be too much to expect out of a person. I am more realistic with my expectations.

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
No.

Did you have a dream last night?
Frightening.

What should you be doing right now?
Winding down.

Do you take walks?
When I can.

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
Fate? No. Things are sparked by random chance.

What's something you really want right now?
Wine, women, and song.

Any exciting plans coming up?
Maybe Cock Sparrer in November. An October party to be hosted by me and Steve.

Last time you were on the phone?
Not today.... last night.

Are you getting engaged anytime soon?
I am.

Do you feel awkward when strangers say hi to you?
I don't believe so.

Do you trust people easily?
No.

Longest phone conversation?
Like 8 hours when I was fourteen.

Congratulations​!​​ You just had a daugher. What's her name?
James.

Congratulations​!​​ You just had a son. What's his name?
Otis.

Have you ever blocked someone on MySpace before?
A few times.

Think back to the last person you held hands with, would you kiss them?
I don't usually hold hands with someone unless I am romantically interested. I think the last person I held hands with was my last girlfriend, so yes.

Do you think you are a good person?
I don't know yet. I try.

How did you get your last bruise?
I can't remember my last bruise.

Have you ever played naked twister?
That's a way of life.

Have you ever been called a slut?
Yes. I think so.

Have you ever been cheated on?
Not to my knowledge.

When and why did your parents get their angriest at you?
I really can't say.

Do you know anyone who has done cocaine?
Yes.

If you were at reasonable age, would you prefer a baby boy or girl?
Whichever.

What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
The ones that like the Clash.

The last person you kissed on the lips said that you were the only one they wanted, would you believe them?
No.

Do you get drunk every weekend?
Probably.

Do you have a bad habit?
Smoking, drinking, all around hooliganism.

Have you ever liked someone who all your friends hated?
No.

Do you want your tongue pierced?
Yeah, it would go great with all the meth I do and all the dicks that I suck.

What color are your eyes?
Brown.

Did you mean it when you said I love you last?
In a friend way and that is understood.

What is the latest you've stayed up in the past week?
probably 5:30 am.

If someone is interested in you right now, would you like them to tell you?
No. Keep that shit away from me.
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Sep. 20th, 2009 @ 03:30 pm (no subject)
Dear Journal, hangovers make me very sexually frustrated. I hate it.
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Sep. 17th, 2009 @ 02:05 pm (no subject)
I feel like a pile of dirt.
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